Before we get into my January failures, let’s talk about recurring dreams. I used to have TON of them as a child, and I have a few that resurface every now and again as an adult. Last night, my brain combined 2 recurring dreams. So weird. I’ve had airplane dream before about being stuck on an airplane that is about to launch (except in all these recurring dreams, airplanes are launched in a way similar to slingshots… terrifying). I also have dreams about being stuck in elevators that are going too fast, or weird directions (read: horizontally and diagonally).

Last night my dream combined both. What does that tell you? Well, in both situations, I’m at a total loss of control. I’m not flying the plane, just waiting for someone else to get me to my destination. I’m not controlling the elevator, just waiting for a machine to read my mind and get me where I need to be. Needless to say, these are stressful dreams. I woke up more refreshed than I usually do when I have creepy dreams, though, so at least there’s that!

Man, this is my best crazy face.

Now on to my 2013 resolution failure. We’re a month in, and where do I stand?

1. Run 520 miles.

This averages out to about 10 miles a week. Except that I have only run about 11 miles for the whole month of January (this isn’t including soccer games and boxing warm-ups, etc.). Yup, I let the cold weather get me down. So, should I readjust to try to make up 20 miles throughout the year? Or just go with the flow to get 10 miles a week, still? We’ll see. I know I need to sign up for some races to motivate myself!

Remember when you liked running, Carolyn?

2. Write a novel.

This one is still in the beginning phases, but I don’t really like where I was going so I just stopped. It seems like now that I have a goal, no ideas are coming to my head, and the ones that are seem pretty ridiculous… Maybe I’ll re-read Stephen King’s On Writing. His perspective really inspired me.

3. Read a new book every month.

I failed at this one in January, too. I tried to read this book that a blogger recommended, Let’s Pretend This Never Happened by Jenny Lawson, but I think since it’s more autobiography and less plot-driven novel, I’m a lot less interested. I don’t feel drawn to see what happens next, but just go to it when I need a laugh or right before bed. It seems I need a new book. I can definitely make this month’s up by reading 2 books in February! Just gotta find a good one.

4. Save $2000+ dollars.

I’m getting there. Almost halfway, actually. This may be impeded by the event that you don’t know is happening.

5. Stop biting my nails.

Not even close. I’m thinking this is a later in the year type of goal. Because, I’m addicted to this little nervous habit of mine. I know it’s gross and annoying, but I just. can’t. stop. No willpower right now.

6. Get a tattoo.

Since this is a one-time event type of goal, I definitely haven’t accomplished it yet.

Totoro tattoo, anyone?

7. Buy no new clothes in 2013.

So far, so good. A whole month without buying extra crap (plus I’m sticking to my grocery budget so far, which brings us to…)

8. Eat out only 1 time a month.

Technically, I balled this one out of the park this month, because I didn’t pay for a single meal out. Sean, however, paid for 3. One was our planned 1 meal a month, and then the Falcons had a chance at the Super Bowl and Sean was afraid he’d make them lose by upsetting the balance of always ordering pizza for the game. After we blew that, we had delicious Thai food after I recovered from illness #2 in this flu season. Technically, though, it was my resolution for me, not my resolution for Sean and I (he was quick to point that out after I told him). So I knocked this one out of the park considering I took my lunch to 3 different restaurants. Stickin’ it to the man!

How are you doing on your resolutions? I say, you win some, you lose some. Better to start anew in February then to ditch your goals completely, right?

Also, HAPPY FRIDAY! To celebrate the day, enjoy one of my favorite GIFs!